Sunday, September 12, 2010
Raya~!!
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Hate it [trafic jam]! (Billionaire cover)
Sunday, September 5, 2010
new hobby??
arini lupa plak klas batal....deeeyymmmm~ kalo tau awal2 xde la aku kalut2 cam mak andam...hish! tp xpe....blh aku tulis byk sikit...haha ni nk habaq mai...aku skrg cam da suka seni2...dulu seni lakon...pstu seni tarian...pstu seni muzik...pstu seni fotografi...skrg minat lak seni edit gmbr n design baju....ckp psl seni lukis ni...aku pnh dpt F- sbb aku warnakan anak sungai yg lalu bwh jambatan warna hitam.....deyymmm~ camne leh confius time tuh...bajet highway la kot~ haha kalo nk di ikutkan....sungai skrg bkn biru sgt...hahaha anyway, ni ade 4 design baju....saje suke2...sape2 n komen,xkesa -ve or + ve..aku trima utk improve diri sndiri~ nah enjoy~ n of coz aku la model...aku la tokey design...jgn jeles~ crdt to peyuz tlg amik gmbr~ =)
Nang nang nang...Ganu kite~
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
oh budak slalu g msjid~
Friday, June 4, 2010
Tuhan maseh sayangkan aku...
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
House M.D - Pilot (Everbody Lies)
A young kindergarten teacher, Rebecca Adler, who suffers from seizures collapses in her classroom after uncontrolled gibberish slips out her mouth while she is about to teach her students. She is taken to Dr. House and his team of experts who identify it might be a tumor, and she might have only a week to live.
House: "People choose the paths that grant them the greatest rewards for the least amount of effort."
Foreman: "Isn't treating patients why we became doctors?"
House: "No, treating illnesses is why we became doctors. Treating patients is what makes most doctors miserable."
House: "See that, they all assume I'm a patient because of the cane."
Wilson: "Then why don't you put on a white coat like the rest of us?"
House: "Then they'll think I'm a doctor."
Foreman: "Oh, Cameron, I need you for a couple of hours."
Cameron: "What's up?"
Foreman: "When you break into someone's house, it's always better to have a white chick with you."
Cameron: "You hired me to get into my pants?!"
House: "I can't believe that that would shock you. It's also not what I said. No, I hired you because you look good; it's like having a nice piece of art in the lobby."
Patient: "I just want to die with a little dignity."
House: "There's no such thing! Our bodies break down, sometimes when we're 90, sometimes before we're even born, but it always happens and there's never any dignity in it. I don't care if you can walk, see, wipe your own ass. It's always ugly - always! We can live with dignity - we can't die with it."
House: "Gorgeous women do not go to medical school. Unless they're as damaged as they are beautiful."
Monday, May 31, 2010
Quote of the day 2
Saturday, May 29, 2010
great things not always perfect!
Monday, May 24, 2010
Quotes of The Day (stupid)
-kwn aku yg dirahsiakan namanya-
lol! bapak porno! haha
Saturday, May 22, 2010
If the World were 100 PEOPLE:
50 would be male
20 would be children
There would be 80 adults,
14 of whom would be 65 and older
There would be:
61 Asians
12 Europeans
13 Africans
14 people from the Western Hemisphere
There would be:
31 Christians
21 Muslims
14 Hindus
6 Buddhists
12 people who practice other religions
16 people who would not be aligned with a religion
17 would speak a Chinese dialect
8 would speak Hindustani
8 would speak English
7 would speak Spanish
4 would speak Arabic
4 would speak Russian
52 would speak other languages
82 would be able to read and write; 18 would not
1 would have a college education
1 would own a computer
75 people would have some supply of food and a place to
shelter them from the wind and the rain, but 25 would not
1 would be dying of starvation
17 would be undernourished
15 would be overweight
83 would have access to safe drinking water
17 people would have no clean, safe water to drink
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Read this future doctors~
I read an interesting article today about a few prominent figures addressing their concern over the increasing UKM and UM medical graduates who have left the country to continue their medical practice overseas.
After reading the news for 3 times, I called a very close friend, an MD (UKM) graduate to ask his opinion on how the news might have affected him. He has been working in Singapore for more than a decade as a Consultant Surgeon with a certain sub-specialty
"Why be a slave in your own country, when you are a king in another?" He replied.
Indeed, if anybody would want to find a reason why all of us left, either after housemanship, after being a specialist, or even after sub specializing, and now, even prior to doing housemanship, they need not look at our payslip, or the wealth that we have gained overseas, but only to the Medical System that has been rotting in the ignorance and politic-based stupidity that Malaysia has been well-known for (in the medical field).
I have served the system for nearly 2 decades of my career, waiting for it to improve for so long, and only finding myself in despair, quitting with a 24-hour notice and serving abroad. The system is, in my opinion, keeping doctors, since the beginning of their career as House Officers to the end of it, in the lowermost priority. When I was working there, doctors are so ill-treated, while the nurses and the medical assistants are overpowering us.
I still remember the days when I was doing seeing patients and rounds as an MO, while the staff nurses would mind their own business, having breakfast in the pantry, or having gossip chats at their own leisure. My House Officers would then have to do merely all the labour-work, up to the extent of setting intravenous drips, and serving medications. If I am to expect the nurses, my patients would have been dead, or the work would have been too slowly or incompletely done.
When I was a House Officer, I had to run down 4-5 floors just to review a blood investigation of a dying dengue patient. The ward staff would either be nowhere around, or will say that he is busy (busier than the doctor?) or the answer I got at that time:
"Doktor nak cepat, doktor turun sendirilah, gaji doktor lagi banyak dari saya"
Even when I was a Specialist, the staff nurses had to be called again and again just to make sure the management plan for the patient would be done. I was already used to answers from them:
“I’m busy with something else"
“My shift is already over"
...it was routine for me.
The Medical Assistants were worse. They would hide behind their so-called boss, the Head of Medical Assistant. They feel hiding behind him would make them not under our jurisdiction, that we have no power to instruct them in managing the patient, that they have power to manage own their own. I've seen them giving medications not as we prescribed, performing procedures without our knowledge, as if they are the actual "Doctors". They are in their own world, and we have to do their job, taking blood, labelling samples, and even cleaning gadgets from the procedures that we have done.
Oh, but the ministry loves this group. They even let them run a clinic now, instead of upgrading the clinics already run by doctors. The government feels that the MAs are very important and should never be ill-treated by those big bad doctors. One time when I was a District Hospital Medical Officer, I was conducting a delivery of a baby. An MA insisted that I remove my car which was block-parking his car. I answered through the phone that I was busy.
He came to the labor room and yelled "Semua orang pun sibuk jugak, macamlah doktor seorang yang sibuk!”
It is insulting that an MA or a staff nurse claims that they are BUSY, as busy as a doctor? As a Malaysian Doctor, I have even worked for 72 hours straight. I have experienced working until my 6 month old daughter did not recognize me at the end of the week.
Is that how busy they are? I am very sure that they are so busy, that they can only spend 2 hours at the nearby Mamak stall, or can only leave at 5:10 PM instead of 5, or can only have 1 hour of lunch.
The management staffs are worse. I have to beg and plead so that I can get my on-call claims, of RM25 per 48 hours of work. While sitting in an air-conditioned office, they will at their own leisure, process my call claims so that I will receive them by the next decade.
The state health or Hospital Director would just give another inspirational talk (of bollocks) on team effort and beauty of teamwork.
That is how Malaysian doctors are treated in the government sector: without respect, without dignity and without significance. Why?
It is because we are bound by ethics to try our best to save lives, despite how ill-treated we are. We hardly have time to complaint because we are too busy or tired, and we would rather spend the precious time resting or seeing our loved ones. The burden of trying to save lives is on our shoulders alone. No MAs or Staff nurses would shoulder it with us. They have their own bosses: the Sisters, Matrons, or Head of MAs, which job description is to ensure that the big bad doctors will not ask their underlings to do extra work.
This is how the Malaysian Ministry of Health have treated their doctors. I am very sure that in each and every doctor, there is a slowly-burning patience in serving the Malaysian people, which will eventually fade and cause them to surrender to serving a place that treats them better.
A few colleagues who graduated from UK choose to serve there:
"The pay is more, and we get the respect we deserve"
Another works in Brunei:
“Here the staff nurses respect Malaysian doctors, and they are very co-operative" (He ended up marrying one)
A few are consultants in Singapore (working with me):
"Here we are treated well, we spearhead the management, and every else do their work to the best of their capabilities".
A few even enjoys working in Indonesia:
“The work-load is horrible since there are a lot of patients, but we are well respected by every hospital personnel" (They have migrated there for nearly a decade)
I am sure that people will see doctors as power-hungry individuals who want to be the boss in the hospital. Trust me, after having graduated 6-7 years of medical school, earning a DEGREE, and subsequently MASTERS, and SUBSPECIALITY, you would expect a degree of respect and being considered important. We are trying our best to improve patient's quality of life, or making sure he lives another day. Is it too much to ask from the system that we are important?
I find that Malaysia is the only country that is making doctors' lives miserable and treated like rubbish. It was never about the pay in the first place. It is about the treatment we are getting and the false political-based promises. Do you know that the so-called circular about doctors can have the day off after working 24 hours straight released JULY 2009 is not yet implemented? Do you know that the raise of UD 41 to 44 does not involve every doctor in the government service?
We are waiting for improvement. We have waited a long time when we were working in the system. Somewhere along the line we decided to leave and wait outside the system. Until the system changes, we will continue to work overseas, in countries which are appreciative of us. Trust me, Malaysian-graduate doctors are considered highly skilful and competent in neighbouring countries, and the 15 % brain drain is more significant than you think.
We will return when the system prioritize us and gives us the quality of life we deserve.
If it stays the same, Malaysian Hospitals would end up having Staff nurses and Medical Assistants as "Doctors", and we would have to send patients to Indonesia for an appendicectomy.
Hear our voice. We hardly speak, but will usually fade away from conflict (and fly to another place).
Ke$ha - Your Love is My Drug
I've got a sick obsession, I'm seeing it in my dreams
I'm looking down every alley, I'm making those desperate calls
Im staying up all night hoping, Hit my head against the walls
What you've got boy is hard to find
Think about it all about it all the time
I'm all strung up my heart is fried
I just cant get you off my mind
Because your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your love your love your love
I said your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your love your love your love
Won't listen to any advice, mamma's telling me to think twice
But left to my own devices i'm addicted its a crisis!
My friends think I've gone crazy, my judgment is getting kinda hazy
My status is gonna be affected if I keep it up like a love sick crackhead
What you've got boy is hard to find
Think about it all about it all the time
I'm all strung up my heart is fried
I just cant get you off my mind
Because your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your love your love your love
I said your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your love your love your love
I don't care what people say
The rush is worth the price I pay
I get so high when you're with me
But crash and crave you when you are away
So I got a question;
Do you want to have a summer party in my basement?
Do I make your heart beat like a native drum?
Is my love, your drug?
(huh) Your drug? (huh) your drug? (huh) your drug?
Is my love, your drug?
Because your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your love your love your love
I said your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your love your love your love (x2)
Heyyy heyyy you love, your love, (whispered) is my drug
Friday, May 7, 2010
How to fake a SMILE n convince poeple around u that u are 'HAPPY'
1. U're getting ready to start ur day at work or school...obviously u r not happy with something or in the smiling mood, but u know that u can't be rude and at least smile so that people around u will not start asking what happen last night..so be cool~
2.Think of a funny movie or anything that may make u laugh or smile just before coming in contact with someone. ..this will appear real and the other person (except professional like me...ahaks =p) will know no difference...if u try just smiling and it's not real, u will be transparent and the individual,even cats can tell if it's fake or not.
3.Telling urself not to smile usually is a good reverse psychology role u can do it anytime u want. u are able to display to the world a quick and 'real' smile this way.
4.If u are a good actor, smile only when u know someone will be in direct contact with u..u do not have to smile when they are not around.So that ur fake smile is not wasted.
5.Take ur time..u need to practice until u can do it on a moment's notice..get a mirror to practice ur smile..without looking at yourself while u practice, u can never improve how to smile...=)
6.Squint both eyes or laugh laugh slightly..this make ur face look more dynamic...if u practice these techniques enough, u will be learn how to fake a smile on demand..
Saturday, May 1, 2010
Transfomasi
ni gambar time aku dlm bilik bedah...xde pape yg menarik...jarum sana sini...ubat2..org sakit...doctor2...dan pemerhati cam aku...
ni aku time bosan....bestnya duk kelantan ni anda dapat xperience 1 suasana stadium penuh ngan peminat fanatik pasukan bola sepak kelantan...siyes...kalo korg sume tgk kat stadium lain...nk cukup separuh penuh belum tentu dapat lg...kalo kat sini...ade je match kelantan...stadium penuh...aku pun xpham..hehe
ni hobi aku yg pertama kat usm...maklum la bosan nk mati...siyes! lepas study susah payah...pukul drum kuat2 nk mati...xde orang nk kesah...drum rosak...USM blh beli lg..haha
ni aku tgh gelecek 3 org...thx to Remy yg gn camera dslr Rezza dpt capture moment berharga nih....slalunya aku men bola xde pun org amik gmbr..mula2 aku men bola xde la serius sgt smpai nk wakil2....cam men ptg2 sejak skolah lg...kat skolah pun xpenah wakil bola inikan nk wakil U...tp kat USM...aku jd komited sikit sbb akta merit yg memaksa student involve something yg memberi merit contohnya bola sepak nih...maka...aku wakil bola USM ke Penang sejak 1st year smpai 3rd year n counting...hehe
ni ramai org xcaya aku msuk tarian...bukan ape..perwatakan aku yang comel2 tp macho (sori riak sikit)..yela,msuk bola then tarian....cam x ngam...kan kan? mula2 aku msuk tarian sbb aku jd bidan terjun...diorg mitak sgt2 kat aku gnti org balik umah ttba atas sbb2 yg xleh dielakkan...maka terjebak la aku dlm tarian...smpai skrg..hehe
ni sukan terbaru aku join....mak aku ckp bahaya...tp aku degil...nk jgk msuk...ni pun jd bidan terjun jgk...join last minit..hehe aku first time msuk..trus dpt silver...bangga! penat,sakit tp puas!
ni aku time form 5....sumpah nerd! tp org xcaya...org igt aku playboy skolah la...ish..xphm aku...hahaha...tgk...dgn tie yg xsesuai..suar tinggi...muke selenge...adoi...ptt la xde org minat aku..haha...n aku xkesah...=P
mungkin ini dinamakan evolusi...bkn evolusi Darwin yg bangang tu...tp evolusi diri dari alam kanak2 ke remaja ke dewasa...aku insan biasa...mampu berubah...kalo dulu ade org kutuk aku selekeh...esok lusa kita tgk sape selekeh...haha chow~ nnt aku update lg...
Monday, April 26, 2010
Katak oh katak
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
20 things to do before u get married..
- Take chances.
- Tell the truth.
- Date someone totally wrong for you.
- Say no.
- Spend all your cash!
- Fall in love.
- Get to know someone random.
- Be random.
- Say I love you.
- Sing out loud.
- Be romantic
- Dance until u drop
- Laugh at a stupid joke.
- Cry.
- Get revenge.
- Apologize.
- Tell someone how much they mean to you.
- Tell the f**king a**hole what you feel..grrrrrr..
- Let someone know what they're missing.
- Laugh until your stomach hurts.
Saturday, April 17, 2010
1001 cara ikat tie
cara pertama cara Small knot...aku guna cara ni sbb nmpk kecik,kemas n comel...sesuai bg tie yg dah di alter jd kecik or korg beli tie kecik..yg saiz biasa pun bleh je..
cara kedua ialah cara Prince Albert....sejarah cara ikat ini aku sndiri xtau n xmo amik tau..hehe
cara ketiga ialah Windsor
cara keempat ialah Half Windsor...sbb amik shortcut trus lilit lepas sekali je silang...
yg seterusnya ialah Four-in-Hand
ni orang pggl Cross Knot
Ni bonus bagi sape yg minat bow tie...or yg beli bow tie psg siap tetiba ade yg gatal buang ikatan...haha
and lastly, ni 'tie' bagi mafia italy...stylo tp kat msia jrg dpt tgk..kalo korg jumpe..amik gmbr post kat aku ek? hehe
btw...sorry ah...tajuk letak 1001 tp post 8 je..hehe =P
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Cool~
actually this is the story i want to stress on about add people in fb n delete them...today i (proudly) ignore 20 friend request...haha all of them are MEN that have nothing to do with biznes,or sport i involve or i've met them n not even in same U,same matrix or schoolmatez..juz random guys dat mutual fren with girls that i always comment on their walls..lolz..afraid of competition? try to find out who am i? find out why the girl laugh along with me? haha 3 words...WE ARE FRIENDS...thats why...no need to add me then delete afterwards...WTF! i hate them..haha
2 post in a day...wow! hehe
Kehidupan Pelajar Perubatan Yang Terlarang
btw..smlm pn ade yg best jgk...ahli2 Majlis Penghuni Desasiswa Murni (jawatankuasa asrama nama Murni) dpt mkn sempena Majlis Penghargaan MPDM..walaupun kene byr jgk...rm10 je pun...namun kami dpt mkn puas...hehe sume pkai lawa2...aku sempat pose ngn Encik Ismadi,Bebeng,Acap dan Izzaz...ni ade skeping gmbr...
berbalik kepada kehidupan aku yg kurang sihat ni....sape2 ade ilmu motivasi...tolong la ajar aku nk jd rajin....siyes nih...aku dah cuak tgk org lain fail exam..huhu...sorry ah blog aku ni da bkarat...9 bulan x update..haha nnt la kalo ade free time aku update la lagi...aku x janji bile..hehe chow~